April 29, 2016 by Petrea
My favorite podcasts are The Moth and This American Life, both full of stories about what it is to be human. One story on This American Life was about a boy who, years ago, ran away from home to find his hero, the author Piers Anthony. Anthony is famous for his many sci-fi and fantasy novels, including the Xanth series. He’s also known for the chapter-long Author Notes that end his books. In the Author Notes of one book, he says:
“One thing you who had secure or happy childhoods should understand about those of us who did not: we who control our feelings, who avoid conflicts at all costs, or seem to seek them. Who are hypersensitive, self-critical, compulsive, workaholic, and above all survivors—we are not that way from perversity, and we cannot just relax and let it go. We’ve learned to cope in ways you never had to.”
Does it ring true for you? Yeah, it rings true for me, too.
At some point, though, you have to stop blaming and take responsibility for your own happiness. Everything I’ve experienced is part of me and part of my writing, just as it was part of my acting. It’s fertilizer, compost, mulch, manure!
Hang in there. Good use can be made of all that poo.